****I feel there is more than that for you, but at the very least that is a good thing.

I was a bit cryptic.

Think about it strongbear. Don't think about tonight, tomorrow, next week or next month.

How are YOU now? Are you a better person than you were a month, six months ago a year ago?

Shed the guilt you may feel because of your H.

Are you better? Are you stronger?

Yes you are. Life dealt you a blow. Yes you have had your ups and downs, but you used this pain to create yourself into a better person.

Let's take the H out of the picture for just a moment and look at your future.

You will have the respect of your kids. Right?

You will have respect for yourself. Right?

You have seen things in yourself and through your parents in yourself that you want to change and will be better because of it. Right?

Regardless of what happens in your marriage you took this pain and turned it into and opportunity. YOU are becoming a better person.

Isn't that good? Not only for you but for your kids and everyone in this world you will touch.