Hi All, Thank you for caring enough for checking in with me. I ALWAYS know who I can count on for advice and encouragement, as well as "friendship"
Ok, last night we went out to a local bar, one that we have never been to before. Had a really nice time talking. I tried to stay clear of talking about the kids. H played some songs on the jukebox, mostly that we liked when we first met. I felt that it was very sentimental. I did not initiate a R talk, I did not want to spoil the mood. At one point he did mention how he thought it was so weird that he now likes hanging out in bars. He said he could sit there for hours, like he did over the winter. I was like, huh? He said, you know, on Saturdays I would go to a bar after work around noon and sit and drink and play video games till midnight. Then I was so drunk that I would sleep in my car. I said it must feel good to sometimes escape reality, he said that was exactly how it felt for him. He said sometimes it is just too much, responsibilities, bills, kids, the house, etc. that it just is so much easier to sit in a bar and drink than to face all of those things.
It sounds a little bit like MLC to me, what do you all think?
Today he was off, helped my B move out of his condo. Tomorrow we will be helping him, his wife and kid move into a house about 5 min. from us. I am very excited. My H was a total gentleman the whole day.
Oh ya, last night before he went to bed he hugged me goodnight, I turned his face to me and kissed him on the lips, not once but twice.
Tonight when he went to bed we hugged and kissed on the lips again.
And another thing, as far as my neighbor, he claims to not have any recollection of any conversation with my H regarding our R. Says he was too drunk. It doesn't matter. I will not give up on my M. I love my H with all of my heart. I will continue to let him travel this road on his own and be his rock. The person that he knows he can always count on and will love him unconditionally.
