Thanks RB. It just is really starting to take a toll on me. I pretty much know that any R talk initiated by me will just get me more frustrated. It is just that when he is here is so so sweet. He holds doors open for me. He picks me up books and magazines that I like to read or a Starbucks. We hang out together and have fun.
Like I having been saying, from the outside looking in, people would think we were a happy couple with a happy family.
This morning, since I was up, he hugged me goodbye and said he would be home early afternoon to help me around the house with things. Can someone really live this dual personality forever? I do have to say that things are much better than they were six months ago but...it is no where near where it should be. I HATE being suspicious all of the time. I HATE not trusting him. Is this how it will feel with my kids when they are teenagers? If it is, I am going to have many more sleepless nights.
