It is truly sad how effected we all are by the actions of our parents. They were well-meaning and did the best that they knew how but someone we ended up a little damaged anyway. Being a parent myself, this scares the he77 out of me. I don't want my kids to grow up with issues, that I may possibly have caused.
I think I will purposly change my interactions with my kids and consciencely think things thru before I say things. Don't get me wrong, I think I am doing a pretty good job but there is always room for improvement. Sometimes I have a short fuse and I start barking orders at everyone because of my own frustrations. That is not fair to them. This is what I am going to focus my energy on for now.
For whatever reason, H only sees me as his friend and roommate for right now. Sure I can try to spice things up but if the feeling is not there, it's just not there.
The temp has actually dropped here today - was in the 100's for about a week - and it is raining. I think me and the kids are up for some fun. I took them to the pool yesterday and we had a blast, if the rain lets up we may go back, or there is always bowling!
