Update: Have stayed off for awhile - even detaching from this board is good sometimes
Yesterday was H's birthday. Kids and I decorated the basement, bought presents, cards and made all his favorite foods. He was truley touched by all the we did for him. Had a really nice time.
A couple times he came home later than he should have, even yesterday, but I just don't let it bother me anymore. There is absolutely nothing I can do about it and making myself crazy is exactly that; making myself crazy.
I have been feeling a lot better about my sitch lately. When I weigh the options, a D would not enhance the quality of my life and reduce my problems, in fact it would do quite the opposite. Therefore, I am choosing to stay in my marriage. My H may have been experiencing a MLC, but I think he is slowly coming out of that selfish, self destructive tunnel. It seems like he is really enjoying our life together and not pretending like when he was in the midst of the A. OW may still be in the picture, probably begging and pleading with him to stay with her. Since I read DB and she didn't we all know where that will get her - lol.
Anyhow just wanted to let you all know that things are improving on this homefront.