Today I get to spend 2+ hours in the car with my family. I am looking forward to it, but a little nervous (even a sort of dread - that's empathy for my W, because I KNOW she's really dreading it). We're going to her brother's wedding. Wish me luck. I am planning on being my best - we'll see how that goes.
I talked to my MIL the other day, asking her to give me her opinion, or rather understanding of what my W is dissatisfied with in the M. I thought it would be helpful to supplement my own observations, and it was. Only problem is she must have let slip to W that I was emailing with her, and W let me have it yesterday telling me not to talk to any of her family (Um, I thought they became my family too when we got married, guess that status changes depending on your feelings too, huh?). So, that was kind of unpleasant. It's amazing what she can twist into betrayal on my part while she's doing what she's doing - I guess her justification is that she's not claiming to love me and I am, so my actions are not consistant with my intentions again.
So, another interesting thing: when I got home yesterday, W was in the shower. The door was ajar, and I walked by and yelled hello. Well, W asked me to come in and talk to her. Our shower has glass doors - so she's totally exposed. Doesn't seem to me that someone who wants to create distance would be comfortable with me in there looking at her. I think she gets off on being wanted. So I told her she was really sexy, and left.
Crazy the mixed messages I get.
“No problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that created it. ” – Albert Einstein
