Muddle, I think somehow I have miscommunicated with you again. I don't think I am taking a negative view of your sitch, more that I am reflecting the kinds of posts you have been posting about your feelings, etc. I have NO idea if your sitch is objectively worse or better than it was before the trip. What I do know is that you are handling whatever the sitch is with amazing patience and control over your emotions.
Again, if I have been communicating a negative view on your sitch, maybe I am projecting my own anger at your W, lol. I think your actions and reactions have been great and like I said, and SAY about most all our sitches, I have no idea what the future holds.
I think the key to your marriage's future is YOUR resolve to see it through this rough patch and for that, you should be commended.
I understand your need to vent, just understand that when you do, people, including myself, may vent back simply because we feel for you.