Went to my Moms! I had to get out of this house. . . sitting here staring at the phone was driving me NUTSO!
I went over and Felina played and I ate lunch . . and they gave me a whole bunch of stuff that they have gotten at yardsales for the girls.
I still feel a little low . . . I hate all this being alone all the time. Even spending time with my family isn't the same as time spent with my H. I know it makes up a little but . . . nothing can really take that place.
I wish I could go of town to a store or a movie . . .or with a friend ANYTHING . . . But everyone is busy. Everyone except me . . . since I haven't found a job yet (pickin' are slim in this little area I live in.) At the end of the month a job at the little local store/deli that my friend works at part time after her full time is going to be opening up because one of the girls is leaving. So I'll apply there once he hangs his "help wanted" sign back up!
I'm trying not to freak out. I certainly don't want to give him the upper hand. I just hate that I think about him and I feel like I know that he NEVER thinks about me because he is with his his future wife.
The next future EX Mrs. XXXXXXXXX LOL nice.
Hope no one placed bets against me. Cause you lose at least for today
