I don't know how to make myself NOT call him I haven't yet. But I know just what you are saying Muddle about "what you resist persist."
So now I am to the point where I am telling myself there wouldn't be any harm in calling him. BUT . . . I know that she could end up with my number again. It doesn't seem fair that he can't call and find out about the girls, I mean Kiya has a doctors appointment tomorrow . . and Felina's b-day is next week. It really does make me look like the bad guy. Most of all though . . I miss him . . and I want HIM to be able to call and chat . . I just don't want to fear picking up the phone because it could be HER on the other end. OH MY . . . .
