Quote: That's right up the road from me, Emily. About 15 minutes.
WOW . . . funny world isn't it????
Yes please do catch up and smack the crap outta me . . . I am fighting the urge to just call him by staying online for now. God I just miss him so badly. I don't know what to do about that. All my friends work so darn much. I have to wait until around 9:30 then I am going to do my banking and whatnot . . . PHHHHHHT That's how I feel today. I am fighting an internal battle . . . I hope I'm not losing.
Alrighty I am having a tough time just accepting what is happening . . . I feel like I should be digging in my heels and fighting instead of letting go and walking away.
I guess sometimes though it's am "unwinable war" and you just have to let go.
Please go easy on me today but most definately tell me what I even know I need to hear. I have to go for awhile . . . I won't call him . . . I hope
I miss him calling me in the morning and before bed . . . and us just talking. I miss just having someone to talk to about our days. That's what I miss. I miss just listening to him talk I guess.
I think most of all I miss hearing ILY even if it was a lie!
I don't know why I miss him. I know all those bad things are true . . I just keep thinking about all the good things. OH . . . It's so hard.
Muddle you confused me a little with your elephant comment . . . BUT I think I get it now.
I'm thinking to big right?
It's just that I've put myself totally out of the running. So what do I do? Nothing? I mean I know now is supposed to be my time to work on me . . . but it's hard when this grieving process feels so damn bad. I am working on myself don't get me wrong.
I just wish he and I could be "friends" through it. I wish there would be a chance for him to see all my hard work when it starts to show.
I guess I've come out of being mad and hating him . . .and now I just sort of want him back. I still don't like A LOT of the things he's done . . . BUT I miss talking to him,
You have posted 4 times in an hour. I am not saying anything is wrong with that, but I want to say take a break and go do something fun. Take a break from your situation and enjoy some time with your kids. You deserve it.
You have posted 4 times in an hour. I am not saying anything is wrong with that, but I want to say take a break and go do something fun. Take a break from your situation and enjoy some time with your kids. You deserve it.
I know I've been trying to keep myself from calling him. I am waiting for my Mom to call me so that I can go down to the bank and get that stuff taken care. . . . . I'm just feeling a little crazy today! Missing him A LOT . . . trying to resist the urge to call him.
My elephant comment had to do with you "trying not to call him." By doing this, you are thinking about, even obsessing over calling him. Don't try not to do something, but rather DO something else. Accomplish something for yourself, don't try to resist your urges. What you resist persists.
“No problem can be solved from the same level of consciousness that created it. ” – Albert Einstein
In that case, each time you have the urge to call him, either post on here or email a friend. That is what I do. It keeps me from calling. Also, get a notebook and each time you get the urge to talk to him, write in it. It helps get things off your chest but you aren't actually talking to him. Keep it and look back at it later down the road. It is fun to read it and see how far you have come.
It hurts to miss someone so much. I hate it. I stay real busy and that always helps me. Good luck!!!
