I miss him calling me in the morning and before bed . . . and us just talking. I miss just having someone to talk to about our days. That's what I miss. I miss just listening to him talk I guess.
I think most of all I miss hearing ILY even if it was a lie!
I don't know why I miss him. I know all those bad things are true . . I just keep thinking about all the good things. OH . . . It's so hard.
Muddle you confused me a little with your elephant comment . . . BUT I think I get it now.
I'm thinking to big right?
It's just that I've put myself totally out of the running. So what do I do? Nothing? I mean I know now is supposed to be my time to work on me . . . but it's hard when this grieving process feels so damn bad. I am working on myself don't get me wrong.
I just wish he and I could be "friends" through it. I wish there would be a chance for him to see all my hard work when it starts to show.
I guess I've come out of being mad and hating him . . .and now I just sort of want him back. I still don't like A LOT of the things he's done . . . BUT I miss talking to him,
