Oh guys . . I am feeling low today. I miss him. Today is the last day of his training downstate. . . and I'll never even know if he passes his CDL . . . I really was so proud. I wonder if she's going to strike out on the road with him tomorrow. Most of all though I wonder where the hell my friend went. I miss him . . . not even so much all the ties and the marriage and all that crap. But I MISS MY FRIEND.
I've known the kid 9 years. . . and WAY back when he used to think I was awful pretty and he'd tell me to smile just because he thought I had a nice smile. Then his family moved around some and when he came back for the last time in 2002 . . . I fell in love with him.
AYE . . . I just want my friend back . . . she shouldn't be allowed to steal that. She can take everything else away. She can have all the rest. BUT damn it he was my friend first. I don't want to lose it all.
I can't call him *couldn't if I wanted to . . I don't have his new number* He can't call me. . . He rarely will get on the internet (I bet he had Cassie change his myspace page). . . How the hell is this ever going work?
