Im so sorry you are going through this.Emily one thing I have to say is really follow your heart,you have alot more power than you think you do.My H tells me the same thing,I love OW more.I have more fun with her.!I have bad days and good ones .but I have noticed some small changes.I try to keep hope and work on myself.And I know my H looks at me alot diffrent and he has become very confused.Right now he is on vacation with her.It hurts,.I worked on myself I lost 45 pounds got in shape.It took 8 months for my H to say he noticed.They notice the changes,and I think when were consistant and loving day in and day out.They begin to question themselves! My H stand right now is he dosent know which one he wants. Now one year ago he could have walked away without a second glance.Althought the waiting game sucks its a must.The OW has told my H he is to leave me after this vacation,so I dont know whats in store.But I have found out the hard way ,I have alot more power than I ever thought.Remember the OW is NOTHING NOTHING....she is not worth wasting your thoughts on.