Emily21, I'm smiling as I'm reading your thread. Some of the things others are posting to you are the same as you are posting to me on my thread! That just shows that we all know the talk but find the walk much harder (no criticism intended). My problem is that each time I think I have got stronger, detached more, etc etc something very minor happens that makes me spiral right back down to the beginning. If you had told me last week that my H briefly touching my hand whilst taking an object out of it would have me on the verge of suicide I'd have laughed at you but that is where I find myself today! So do what others have suggested and forgive yourself for whatever wrongs you feel you have done. It's what I am trying to do right now b/c I realise that although I might be saying I forgive H if I don't forgive myself first for my part in my M going sour all it will be is words and we all have plenty of them.
Me 43 XH 45 M 2.7.88 Divorce 7.10.09 Kids D20,S17 & D15
