Yeah I like them a lot too believing_isaiah43 . . . thanks for the shout-out!
Thanks Frank . . . I'm really taking steps I think.
Alright I woke up this morning with a huge ball of stress in my chest. I realized that I have severed all contact with my H. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Ok now that that's out. I don't have his "new" cell number (if he even got it yet) and he doesn't have my new number. It's a little scary.
I'm not quite sure what to do. Sometime I still pick up the phone expecting to hear this voice on the other end. Like I said . . . we couldn't have a pleasant convo though. Not even close.
I have nothing nice to say to him. . . and I'm pretty sure he feels the same way. He told me while he was here this past weekend that if he could've just kept "walking" and wouldn't have started talking to me again then he wouldn't have ever thought twice about coming back. So I'm guessing thats what will happen this time. He doesn't want to be friends. . . and we don't have each others phone numbers. Sad really.
I think it's sad anyway. I don't really want my marriage to be over . . although I think I am ready to start with my TOTALLY new life. It'll be two years probably anyway . . . that's plenty of time for me to adjust and settle into the idea. LOL! He can always go to another state and get remarried . . . . I think . . . Or does that only apply to same sex marriage (where they aren't really viewed as married in every state?) I'm guessing it applies to only to that.
UGH . . I really am mad at him for breaking my heart. I am still looking for that forgiveness. I prayed for him AND Cassie lastnight though . . . and I didn't even pray for them to die in a flaming mass like I would've just a little bit ago.
I really do hope his life works out for him. I'll always be a small part of it no matter what. Can't help that when there are kids invovled.
I have to try to call domestic relations again today. Maybe I'll be able to get that number for the Cumberland Co. one . . . and I'll ask about the custody sitch.
