PL,
Wow, what a powerful post. Your experience with the woman at the seminar had me crying too. We are told the same words on these boards but to be able to experience it in person makes it all the more believeable.

I too am not overly religious but believe in God. I too have started going back to church and praying, sometimes 2-3 times a day. I too have had a 'spiritual' experience (my 1st ever) just recently that gave me such calm and insight into why I'm doing what I am doing. I shared this with a close friend and he was happy that I did. He said that he has had only 2 'like' experiences in his lifetime and never talks about it cos he doesn't want people to think he is a church fanatic.

I think when we get to the point in our sitches like you and I are, alot of LBS's get impatient and start saying 'what about me and my needs?' And they push the MLCer for a decision and the MLCer can not make a decision right now so the LBS moves on. Most of our friends who have been so supportive this past year are now starting to question my stand but they know it's what I want so they wisely say nothing.

You are doing the right thing by journaling here and staying strong!
{{{hugs}}}
Sooner

When we get tangled up in our problems, be still. God wants us to be still so He can untangle the knot.