Morning PL, I sure hope you got some sleep last night - looks like you were up late posting.
You said you don't think you can go on - YES YOU CAN!!! How do you think giving up would improve your sitch?
You said you wanted to "turn the lights on" and tell everyone what is going on - DON'T DO IT! Especially not to H's parents. You said they were far away. This would only cause them great stress worrying about the two of you and not being able to help. Do not call the OW either, she does not deserve the time of day from you - now you may want to somehow let her H know what is happening although that would only backfire and your H would be really pissed at you for ruining OW's life, so don't go there either.
I am not a religious person but I'm glad that you are able to give your problems to God. Let him spin his wheels and do all the worrying. You take advantage of your Type B tendencies and keep on LIVING your life. I know you want to really back off from seeing your H, but come on, do you really think you can? You will take whatever you can from him regardless of what he has done because you love him unconditionally. I do the same thing BTW.
As far as the crying, it probably is PMS and the fact that the frustration in your mind is like a volcano ready to blow. Cry if you need to, then clean up your face and go strut that size 8 all over town.
although that would only backfire and your H would be really pissed at you for ruining OW's life, so don't go there either.
