Positively 3rd thread - how do you deal with this?

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Hi Always, Thanks for writing me. I have never stopped loving my H. I love his flat sides as well as the perfect parts. If he only knew. Sometimes loving H feels like my biggest problem. I feel like I should be able to turn it off when it is so unreciprocated right now. But instead, I love him more, watching him muddling through, trying to grow, trying to find happiness. I feel for him when he hurts. I have always loved this about H, he is a seeker, like me. I am not even mad about what has happened. I feel 100% improved in 8 months time - that is nothing to shake a stick at, right? It is my impatience that gets me frustrated. I can't believe it is taking so long. I better take up some more entertaining activities

OK, I just realized something I really don't like about my H and can't accept. I don't like it when he is dishonest. In the past he was dishonest about his feelings. And so I missed alot of important information that I needed to be a better wife for him. That sucks. I was not able to read his mind and figure it out on my own. Although honestly, when I put some focus on it as I have recently, I realized that I had not been listening to H's signals, which were not as verbal as mine. I missed that - he was trying to tell me some things. Just not in the language I was used to.

Regarding the dating thing, I don't know if I could do what you did. Maybe I could. But honestly, I am pretty sexually hungry right now and if I met a guy who wasn't a prince, I might be in trouble fast. And if I met a guy who was a prince (respectful and all) I might become infatuated and fall in love with that. I just don't feel trustworthy in that arena right now.

Heck, I'm in love with half the boys on this board, sight unseen It's kind of hard not to think GH, RB, PARob, JM and all those gems of men aren't just the hottest properties out there. Look out boys. So for now, I best just keep a safe distance. I think