Well its been over 1 month since I have posted here.
I wasn't looking forward to Christmas and the new year but they ended up quite good considering what has been going on. Spent xmas day at the family home with W, kids & her parents. It went well, I went with the intention of making the most of it and making it as enjoyable for the children as I could. Boxing day was smme people plus all W's brothers & sisters, their spouses and children. Everyone had a good time.
Spent newyears eve camping with D9, D11 and a few friends I have met since we seperated. It went good, the girls had a great time plaing drums and exploring.
Didn't put any pressure on W at all through the festive season. We seem to be communicationg fairly well even if it is in a quite reserved way.
OM 2 semms to have distanced himself from W. W it seems wanted commitment from him and he didn't want to commit. Don't know if its over or still simmering. W will now probably start looking for another one. The hedge of thorns praying may have helped here.
I had been thinking of asking W out to dinner one night out of the blue. Well was talking to W earlier in the week and she asked what I was doing Friday night. I was thinking she wanted me to look after the kids so she could go out but I decided to say I had nothing on. Well you could have knocked me down with a feather when she said "you want to come with me & D16 to the Surf Club for dinner and dancing". I tried to not look too eager or gobsmacked.
So we went on Friday night, not before I'd bought a new shirt, jeans and shoes. W had a great time and so did I. It was really good the hear W laughing and to see her enjoying the music. Worst part was not being able to show her any affection. No hand holding, arm around her or hugs, especially when that is what I so want to do.
I feel the "date" was quite a breakthrough, but I know I cannot expect or read too much from this. At least it gave me something to write about.
Its only the 7th day of the new year and I know for a fact this year is going to be alot better than the last one whatever happens.
