Feeling my way around in the darkness

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I think tonight instead of initiating... I will just ask him if he would like to ML. I will be taking a big chance saying ML as opposed to having sex. But I have to find some courage sometime.

I guess my fear is that a R talk will ensue and that will be an opportunity for him to say he is just here because of the boys.

If he does say that though, maybe I need to hear it.

Thoughts please....