Feeling my way around in the darkness

[NNP1965]

So far so good today. The meeting last night was good. Liz came also. We both said that we did not really feel like coming, but since we had each promised the other, we were there. I gave her my phone number, I have a new friend Maybe I will GAL after all.

As for initiating. I am not sure what to do. He accepts usually when I initiate, but it is only sex, not ML. I would like to ML. If I initiate and he just takes, I don't like the way I feel afterward.

Does that make any sense. I would like to feel wanted, and I don't. I guess that is the wrong thinking to have though.

Oh I should add... H stepped up and did a good job of getting the boys where they needed to be last night. and I did remember to thank him for it.