Feeling my way around in the darkness

[WCW]

I am the one doing all the initiating. Is it wrong to hope that he would also?

Absolutely not. If you were not aware of the porn viewing issue, what would you do? how would you act then? But, being that you are aware, maybe he thinks he is some kind of star and you should be doing all the chasing? Only you know how the intimacy really is and the feeling of the moment and if you can or can't or should or shouldn't initiate or insist on ML. I know how you feel, I was blasted big time earlier this year for not initiating and jumping all over H when he showed the first sign of interest. But in the moment of the mood, it still did not feel right at the time. And I stand by my decision at that time, because it feels like we are getting 'righter and closer' now than if I would have pushed then. It is a very personal decision that we can all give our opinions and offer advice about, but it is always and ultimately YOUR feeling that is what you must commit to.