Feeling my way around in the darkness

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On the home front... I do not know how to explain it, but I have a bad vibe. I have no basis for thinking that my H did anything wrong while I was gone. He seemed happy to see me on my return. But I just have a weird feeling... I guess there is nothing I can do about that though.

I went to the meeting last night. There were only 3 other women there to start with. I felt like I would not even be able to sit there when they first started talking... everything in me was screaming "I do not want to be here"... but I did not move.

Two women walked in about 10 minutes late (because they had gone to the wrong room). They are sisters and one was visiting from CA. She has been going to Al-Anon since 1989 and she brought her sister for the first time. Anyway to make a long story short, these two women were sent to this meeting by God, just for me I think. Have you ever met someone and realized they are going to mean something in your life? That is how I feel about Liz. She is going through much of what I am. We both said how stupid we feel to be this age and just realizing that we and our children are still being impacted by the person(s) who raised us.

We hugged after the meeting and both promised to come again next Tuesday.

I will probably have more thoughts to add to this later.

Oh and I just told my husband I was going to a meeting at the Methodist church (we are Lutheran), he never ever asked what it was about.