Feeling my way around in the darkness

[NNP1965]

I have been trying out a few things and so far so good (mostly). He did close a computer screen when I walked in to the room yesterday, but I did not investigate to see where he might have been. so I just have to ass-u-me that he was looking at a jewelry store site and is planning to buy me an extravagant gift! Right?

I want to share something I read in the book I mentioned above:

There are four rules of alcoholic families, supposedly. this is the under the heading The Rule of Denial

If I pretend that this is not happening, then maybe it will go away is the motto by which many ACoAs live their lives. Denying reality - particularly painful reality - is second nature. The it-will-be-different-this-time way of looking (or not looking) at the world gets the ACoA into many painful situations, particularly in sexual relationships. Many ACoAs will stay with a partner, pretending time after time that things are going to be different, and, of course, they never are. They get worse.

I think I need to go throw up now.....