Feeling my way around in the darkness

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OMG I feel like I just had an epiphany! For anyone who has not been following Jokerman's thread you will probably need to read at least the last few pages in order to understand what I am going to say here.

It just occured to me that each and every time my H has dropped the bomb and then recanted, that he never ever once did anything to make things better between us. I was always the one to be trying to figure out what I could do to make him happy. But then I never got any feed back on anything I did and like was mentioned earlier, I was so happy to have him here that I would get to the point I was afraid to do anything for fear of rocking the boat.

I have to think on this some more. Right now I am sick to my stomach, and wondering why I have never realized this before.