It's been exactly 11 months for me too!! And I ask the same questions as you. After all is said and done, is this person worthy of my loyalty and love?????
I hear what everyone is saying. Two wrongs don't make a right. Yes, I am being selfish and acting on my emotions. It's not right for me to involve an innocent person in this mess. But at the same time, I cannot go on pretending that nothing ever happened and that the man that lays next to me every night is worthy of me. I guess that is the anger in me that cannot think correctly until all of the last bit of anger is gone.
So throw daggers at me! I can't help what I feel!
I used to be a very strong willed person. This knocked me down to the ground and tore me to pieces. I nearly lost my job because I couldn't focus. I didn't pay the bills for 3 months. My heart felt so heavy and it ached. I couldn't believe that this happened. As I've mentioned before, I do take some blame but not all.
