am I healed? um. no. do I trust her? not really. I've found I don't worry about her when she is out of the house, I never check her cell, but I think it's more of extreme detachment, not trust. I mean trust is knowing from history that something will or won't happen. so can I say that I trust she won't do it again? history says no.
I'm in extreme limbo land anymore. I mean my wife does anything I ask and more . but I find myself not really caring. I don't know what that means for our future. I WANT to trust. I don't know how long I can stay in a trustless marriage. I don't throw it in her face, I do almost anything to not think about it with the exception of coming on these boards. I guess my gaurd is still up.
I look at her core character, how she is with others, and how she was in the past. she isnt evil, just did a really crappy thing. totally in unchartered waters here.
lol, all these words and I doubt I helped you at all.
feel free to hit me with other questions that you might have.
