Well...Tamashii,

I can understand how you must be feeling, however, as I mentioned before....I didn't ask to be put in this situation. H decided to take a chance with OW! His lies and secrets is what is making me outraged! I am clouded right now and don't know what I want. All I know is that I am extremely ANGRY and annoyed with what he did. I don't even know if he loves me for sure. I feel he stopped seeing OW because it was the right thing to do. Because he didn't want to go through all the trouble of a divorce. I've heard on this message board that actions speak louder than words....well, his actions are very negative some times. At first I panicked and started reading all the books that would help me be a better wife. Then I realized, it's not ME!!! He was tempted and DID it! He should be the one reading the books! If he truly wanted to salvage our marriage, he would show that he wants to do everything in his power to save us! I really do love my H and don't want to hurt anyone. Sometimes you just need a little kick in the butt to get back on track. And, that is why I asked for everyone's input and direction. I am clouded and angry right now.