This is revenge, disguised as romance, and some poor guy that you will use for your vengeful act will pay the price.
This is the Devil coaxing you, telling you 'what's good for the goose...etc.'
When Amy posted the thread concerning a hedge of thorns, I asked God to put one around MY heart too. I'm human, I have desires, I have demons. But I've chosen to STAND. 'Chosen' is the operative word here. You cannot 'choose' then be led around by your feelings. "For better or for worse' means exactly that, not 'until I don't feel like it.' It was YOUR CHOICE to marry this man. Do your choices mean anything?
That's a question only you can answer.
David
The fires of true love can never be quenched, because the source of its flame is God Himself! - Shulamith