The PA that my husband had is making me feel very distant from him. I feel he has pushed me and I'm starting to have feelings for someone else. I met someone that I am totally attracted to. He made it a point to let me know that he is single. The next time I saw him, he asked me if I was married, divorced or single. I didn't answer, I was embarrased for my flirtatious acts. He immediately apologized for asking me and then I blurted out "can I call you". So he gave me his phone number. This is DANGER, DANGER, DANGER waiting to happen. But, why do I feel giddy, happy, alive???? I love seeing his BIG smile when he sees me. I have been longing to see this in my husband, but never do. My husband seems to always be angry and unhappy. I am finding myself totally infatuated with this new guy. My H and I tried counseling and he dropped out (said it wasn't doing anything for him). So I left too. I've been reading self help books and he chooses not to. He doesn't work and hasn't worked for the past 6 years. I am angry that he won't get out there and find a job. I am tired of buying my own gifts for birthdays, christmas and valentines. (well, he buys them....I have to give him the $$). For once, I want to be wined and dined!
I think the reason he stopped seeing the OW was because he wanted to do the "right" thing. Perhaps he really loved her like his emails said.
I don't know, maybe I am trying to justify my feelings that just recently transpired.
