this is so weird, I can post back here on my thread, but not on the last post. Anyway, I'm kinda struggling right now, and I think i'm gonna have to come here and have a major vent/hissy fit....last night was a sleepless night before all staff meeting, after discussion about monster, and in the night it hit me, big time, just how much this damned affair has cost "us"...and she struts around like some gd peacock....and she does have her claws back out after him again, he even admitted it. I havent heard from him this morning, he's not with a client, I shut off my email to try to "wean" myself from it. You should see the strut that whore's got. truly amazing. I gotta get to work, lots to get done today and I have to leave early, but man am I irritated. I'll try to post later today.
I don't know what's going on with my computer, my posts don't seem to show up, and I can't post at the end of my thread, only back here towards the middle. Anyway, I was posting how I'm struggling again, today was the damned all staff meeting, last night was a sleepless night, H mentioned monster, and admitted that she's trying to suck him back in....In the midst of the sleeplessness, it hit me just how much this damned affair has cost "us"...and then to see her strutting around like a fricking peacock. oh how the w---e can strut!!!! I am mad as hell, havent heard from H this morning (his not with a client, I checked the schedule) and I turned off my email to try to wean myself from looking at it. I have to get to work, I have a lot to do today, and have to leave early....so, I may not get to post today, but sure feel like I need to.
here today....for a minute H has been "weird", hard to describe, but it's real, I don't doubt myself anymore. Whiny, pissy, moany, unsettled. bitching about having to work more....grumpy and more distant to me...we had the flu over thanksgiving, joy....so I thought maybe it was that, but.... this morning I got online and checked the phone bill. since the day after thanksgiving, 8 phone calls to her...only 1 more than a minute, and that was monday for 8 minutes, but I'm gonna go back and check, monday was the last day listed. then I'm going home and ask what the hell he thinks he's doing. and we'll see.
hey hon, sending prayers your way)))) he's prob still weaning himself from the A. I too found records of my H trying to contact her. I recently brought up and he said he still didnt' understand why she was so nasty andmean to him at the end and he couldnt' live w/the fact she told him she hated his guts, so he tried to call her about 6 times in 3mths, only 1 convo 4min long, then he didn't call her again.
I pray this is your case, that he really wants nothing w/her and is just closing that chapter in your life.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.
Slowly