Slowly, thanks, it helps a lot to know that you still get panick attacks sometimes. It is weird and catches me off guard, but sometimes when things are going well I find myself being overwhelmed with hard, upsetting -and panicky-feelings. sappy music in the grocery store really drives me up the wall, of all things. I am going to try listing out the worst-case possiblities as you mentioned.
gotta run, maybe I can get back for a bit this evening or in am.... I did have an email from H, he hacked into monsters personal ad on the net and really messed with it...sent f-off emails to guys, and changed her password. sigh. That concerns me, because he's been so emotionally detached from her the last month. he says he's just sick of her s--t...but still, if he gets that angry, there must be something under it. Then again, there's the guy I dated many many years ago who still infuriates me and makes my skin crawl just to see him...perhaps it's in that category.
