Dear dear Fizzle - I can understand the mixed feelings. I still get panic attacks, sometimes triggered by apparently nothing. Not so long ago, I caught a re-run of a 1984 Robert de Niro and Meryl Streep movie, Falling in Love. Both were married and pursued a relationship with each other. It was tough to watch, but impossible to flick over. Thankfully I was with a couple of girlfriends and not NG. But it made me think about our fears and how they control us. Other people's choices are simply that, ultimately it is our fears that hold us hostage.
I remember the roller-coaster ride, and in the end, I had to just sit down, list all the worst-case scenarios I could possibly imagine, and then have a plan for each of them. I'm sure it did not change the course of events, but it made a huge difference to how I felt on a day to day basis.
