It was an interesting weekend. H was very different....
Friday afternoon, I worked out with him ( I am going to get back into a regular routine!!!) and I had gone upstairs...he came up...made a special trip...and said "I just came up to tell you how great it is that you worked out"...I told him thanks, that his encouragement means a lot and helps a lot. Guess what????? He didnt "do paperwork" Saturday morning....uh huh, guess that confirms that suspicion. Commented that he wasnt going to drive over because it was raining (um, never stopped him before); I was nonchalant, but told him it was nice to have him home. He commented "I thought you might be ok with that". I did notice he slept in till 6 AM Saturday morning. I got groceries that morning, was gone about 2 hours, and found myself getting tearful over some sappy lost-love song they were playing in the store. thought "what the hell am I doing here?" and hurried home. Got home, told H I needed a hug...he asked if I was ok, I told him I'd just heard that sappy song and it made me feel sad, said "I guess I'm overly emotional right now"...and he just said, "no, I've had that happen to"...
Interestingly, while I was gone....H and S14 hauled a new weight bench I had bought him to the basement and started to put it together. THAT is amazing. I bought that for him for fathers day. It has sat outside on the porch in the box since then. I thought that was significant.
Sunday I had to run back to the store to grab an item for lunch, wasnt gone as long, but when I got home H came upstairs and said "hey, you should come see what I got done"...he had the new bench pretty much assembled and moved into place, AND he had torn out some of the old carpeting and put down more of the new rubber matting. My obervation is he is much more "into" "home" when w---- is out of the picture. I did work out Yesterday again, so that's about 2 weeks now that I've gotten in at least 3 workouts/treadmill sessions. maybe someday!!!
At one point, H made that comment that "it needed to end, it was getting to the point of being dangerous, almost a fatal attraction kind of thing"...I didnt ask any questions, but now I'm thinking maybe I should have asked what he meant. I watch my back, but maybe I need to be aware of something particular. Interestingly, I don't ask much about the A anymore. I guess I'm getting to the point of thinking it really doesnt interest me that much, or more like isnt worth my energy to focus on, I have much more important things to do. That is certainly a 180. My guess is that the monsterw---e's rages are more intense. Oh yeah, H did say she was whining about "my blood pressure"...she will stop at nothing to do the "guilt trip" number.
I did comment this morning that "I sure wasnt expecting to hear the news you shared Thursday evening, it is great, but I still have a hard time believing it". He said, "I know, but you'll come to". My comment was "How so?" and he said "because you will see".....I did mention "I just want US to be good", and his answer was "we are going to be PERFECT".
He also commented "there is so much I want to get done around the house here"....I did resist the urge to do a happy dance and shout "there's the broom/paintbrush/hammer". Having him DO something, anything, around the house would be darn near as good as having him get rid of the what the heck ever she is. I can't even think of a fitting word anymore. I continue to wait and watch. If he did show interest at home, not "do paperwork" on Saturdays, and the phone bill went down, I would start to believe.
