oh yeah, at one point in the yelling, I said I didnt think it was unrealistic to expect someone I was married to not be involved with some one else...he said "no it's not, I think you should have that expectation"...admitted the calling, etc., was hurtful behavior...
he said that she refuses to get back into the "affair" but is always telling him to "come back"; said "she deserves better"...to which I screamed "so do I"...he agreed.
At one point I yelled that I was gonna get surgery and have my own escapade with find "somebody new" he got really mad, going on about how he doesnt want a "wh--e"...I yelled back that "what's good for the goose is good for the gander"....
I told him it wasnt so much the sex as the lying and sneaking and looking me in the eye and lying through his teeth that absolutely makes me wild.
He also made a comment of what a change it would be to go with her, said "She makes it very clear she expects me to take care of her, and you take care of me"...
one telling thing...Saturday he brought in the billing statement for the car insurance, had opened it and said "it looks like we need to pay this"...I said "no I've paid it", looked at the date, and saw it is due 8/11...said "yes, it's just the current statement"...we just need to make the usual payment of $112...his eyes got big, and he said "you mean a month?!....I told him yes, it used to be over 200 (true)...he doesnt even know what the car insurance costs.
And so it goes. I have such a hard time steeling myself for this....I wish to heck I didnt still love him. guess that says it all.
