I am kind of shocked by how sad and devastated I feel. As I told him last night in my screaming fit, this is worse than the first time, I guess to know that the lies go on, and the worst part of all is that he stayed home to talk to that whore on the phone while i rushed S to the hospital when he was so desperately ill. I don't know if I can reconcile that....and then he doesnt even seem to see it as wrong.
