more thoughts re: my journaling about today and yesterday- 7/13/06
I didn't mention my W's first call to me this morning. She leaves a msg on my cell and says you're probably in church. We were. Then goes on to ask her favor. I know I have my priorities right in my life. I pray for all of us.
On Friday evening, we all went to a 6 yr. old's birthday party. I came from work and arrived after W and our children. I stayed away from W purposely b/c our son wants to be in my arms ONLY when he sees me. I finally go and get him and take notice again of what my sister-in-law (MY brother's wife) told me she noticed ages ago. I am the one who dotes and and takes care of our children if both of us are present. It was true when we only had one child and I noticed it again on Friday evening. W is firmly rooted in serving herself not our children and in meeting her own needs, not our children's. THAT makes me sad. The behavior I have witnessed from the beginning is the exact behavior that W always told me her mother did and W did NOT want to be like that. Unfortunately, the apple did not fall far from the tree and I believe I will have double duty raising our children to be happy, heallthy, and whole. I am up to it.
One other thing that evening. The host was talking to me, as he always does, and asks how I am doing. I tell him fine. He says you seem to be doing well. Just remember to take care of you children. They are the most important. I tell him I agree and I will. It's amazing that I often get words of encouragement from those I know, since NO ONE likes me, as my W would tell you. I don't take her "stuff" on automatically. I sift through it for truth first.
