I have come to realize over the past 5-6 months of my sitch that my love for my wife is deeper than even I ever realized. My other realization, a healthy one, is that I don't need her and/or her love. I want both, very much, but I do not need either. THAT realization took me 5 months of soul searching and self help to achieve. And, with the realization, I am even more committed now than I was in the beginning to DB/DR my M to health and happiness.
I want to build a new, strong, loving, respectful partnership. I continue to work on me and pray for God's guidance, healing, mercy and grace. I'll probably be on again later todoay. I miss my children so much today. Won't see them again until Monday night.
