Spent last night and today with our children. I love them both so much. They are such precious gifts from God. My S will turn 1 on 8/10 and my D5 will turn 6 on 8/24. Big days for little people.
I feel sad for my D5. She is so hurt, confused, angry, and lonely for mommy. I try to comfort and reassure her that she will always be safe, loved and cared for and that mommy and daddy's troubles are NOT her fault. Unfortunately, I don't know what mommy is telling her since mommy has been telling D5 (& anyone who will listen) that we are already divorced. My D asks me if we are divorced and I tell her the truth. Not yet, but it looks like we will be. I don't say anything negative about mommy. The saddest part of it all is that D5 is afraid to talk to mommy about her feelings. Absolutely afraid. Sad.
We stayed in most of the day. Ran a couple of errands and spent time together. My S is so funny. He is happiest when he is sin my arms. Serious daddy's boy. D5 is a daddy's gir, but she misses mommy lots. I hpe that my W will open her eyes and see that bving in the same house is not the same as spending quality time togethesr and bonding. Unfortunately, I remember my W telling me that she considered it to be quality by just being in the same house at tHE same time. Perhaps that also extends to our D. I hope not.
