So yesterday I told my wife that I was working on my issues, especially sex and intimacy and I was very vulnerable and candid and authentic with her without being wimpy and weak. It felt like she heard what I said and she thanked me for sharing it. It was a way to convey to her "I get it" and I want a happy marriage, not just a marriage, that I never realized until now that she had been so lonely, that I never wanted her to be so lonely, that neither of us was getting what we needed but that we could work through that.
I felt good about our conversation.
Today I get an email from her inviting me to go with her for a workshop on divorce mediation for COUPLES. I felt devastated. WHAT???!!!
I want to spend my energy on coming together, not going apart. God, this is horrible.
