I understand what you are saying. I'm just not able to detach emotionally enough to not let the EA bother me. I admire the strengh of a lot of people here on this BB who do exact that.
SHE suggested after several month of Dbing to work it out. Since then SHE has told me several times it is over. Like last Tuesday, when she said she finally made up her mind and knows what she needs to do. And again on Sunday after we had great sx. We talked about it and she KNOWS it means NO CONTACT.
Yes, I would like to work it out with her, BUT I don't want to be lied to anymore and just used for my money. And that's what she is doing. She calls him EVERY day, last Sat four times. There is nothing to work on right now. I have to wait until the A is over. And I'm losing my patience. I'm at a point where I daily think about moving out again and let her deal with her crap. Some physical distance would probably help me.
And I have the opportunity to move back into our house which is currently up for sale. Our contract with the realtor ends this months. And she signed the lease for our current house we live in. Since I already pay the mortgage that would finacially be the same.
But it would be very hard on my D5. That's what is holding me back. But she still has her room at our old house. Perhaps that would make it easier for her to spent again every second weekend w/daddy?
I now it sucks, I am NOT sure what to do, do I stay or do I leave? My C told me take it day by day, one day I will now. And I also now that DBing would not let me show her the results of my snooping. But I don't care anymore. I want to let her know that I know she is lying. And that she can't expect me to be her friend. Would you lie constantly to a friend?????
Just getting thoughts out of my system. Perhaps some people calm me down again and I go for another week or month.
