Cat,

thanks for checking in.

Brief update:

Things have been pretty cold. For W's BD we had a nice dinner together and I did let her drive my car that day. But NO gift. I always gave her gifts, major 180, but I would rather call this pressure, or 'I don't like what you do to me'. More arguments over the weekend and generally avoiding each other.

Monday night the police called, W had to pick up sS15 from there. Great. Then sS15 comes home BEFORE W. He tells me W kicked him IN FRONT of the police and almost got arrested. Her problem.

Two days ago she suddenly told me she is ready to give it up. Ready to cut off contact w/him and returning his cell phone. But she wants to write him a letter....

I'm currently in a weird mental state. I really don't care right now what she does. I only want to get my life back together and care for my D5. And she told me before similar things. So I will just wait and see if she follows up w/actions.

I'm not really DBing. I want her to stop the A. If she doesn't I won't be nice. Is this detaching? Certainly not loving detachment. I'm emotionally not able anymore to let her have an A and be loving, supportive, and happy FOR her.

Do I still belong on this BB?

EvolvingMe