W and I just took D5 to her first day of school. What should be a happy day starts for me really sad. All the other parents happy w/their kids, married couples, some holding hands. And there I am, have a happy and excited D5, w/W that doesn't want this family anymore.
D5 will have to go to daycare after school. Will have to go to daycare before school. Won't have a parent at home for lunch and for helping w/homework in the afternoon like her brother did. B/c W chose to work full time to pay of bills wrecked up during the last year by her and for childcare and for whatever other reasons.
D5 brother, my stepS15, totally messed up. Rejected by his biol. father, his mother having and A w/someone 10 years younger, and introduced this person to sS15. Since then he acts destructive. Refuses to go to school, drugs, police.....
Now W wants to get rid of him. Something she would have never considered a year ago. But she feels bad about it. I can't even imagine how bad. I also can't imagine wanting to send my D5 away. I think W wants me to comfort her about this, do I?
I feel this family is falling apart and there is nothing I can do about it. I feel so helpless. And the children will suffer most.
And then D5 was sick for the last few days. W and I had this argument over the weekend. Can't get any sleep. I have no energy anymore to fight.
