I don't know how to deal w/it. Found out W was contacting Om after the ring episode last week directly after she was apologizing to me. Then I asked her about her recent internet activities. She said just flirting, nothing serious, 'I'm not going to meet him, that's not going to happen'.
Then my D5 was playing w/W daytimer. When I closed it there was a love note from Om on the first page.
I broke down again, went into a different room and cried. My D5 noticed and came to comfort me and snuggled w/me. W came and was upset seeing D5 w/me crying.
I lost it again. Wanted to know who she wants to spent her life with. Told her this limbo is killing me. She doesn't seem to care. Ended in an ugly argument like the ones we had about 6 month ago after the sh*t hit the fan. No DB from my side at all. She slept on the sofa I went in our bed but couldn't sleep.
I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to move out b/c D5, I love W and want to be together. She wants me around but told me again she is NOT going to stop contact w/Om.
Do I just get adjusted to the phone calls and emails as long as they don't see each other? It looks like from what some WAW posted here on the BB that I might have a chance if I give her this space and wait until she figures herself out.
I wish she would just leave D5 w/me and went to Om. Unfortunately she is not going to do that.
