Just back from MC session. W said she can't let go (Om). She is finding herself. Doesn't want to be 'owned'. Doesn't want to please others. Wants a 'nontraditional family' but can't explain. Doesn't want to be worried with R, she has enough to do figuring out herself.
I can live w/her finding herself. But I'm pi$$ed at her holding on to Om. She keeps lying to me about it. I think MC is useless. Why bother if she wants Om or sitting on the fence, eating her cake whatever....
I'm strongly considering moving out again. I can't stand the lying. Feel like cr@p.
MLC in full bloom.
I just feel so helpless, fear about my D5.
I don't know if I can do this much longer...............
