Sorry to see the turn in your Sitch EM

I am in a similar sitch except my "EX's" OM is very healthy and fully in the picture and I'm "out".

In my case what I am doing is returning to the things that pulled my "EX" back to me...

That is moving on with my own life and working on things that make me and my Kids happy.

Perhaps returning to the begining in your case is what you need to do.

Best of Luck

ROK