Since last Fri W is depressed, mostly in bad mood, and very distant. Fri evening she told me Om is back in hospital. So I know why she is this way.
How do you guys handle that? W still has an EA, I doubt PA will be possible again. I know in the end Om doesn't matter, but I don't know how to get it out of my thoughts. I can't heal this way and it makes it so hard to piece. And I also can't rebuilt my trust. Now I have thoughts 'what if she is looking for somebody else, another Om in a better sitch than the current one'.
Over the weekend W said things like 'if we separate again we could still be friends? We would need to spend time together anyway...'.
And tonight W has a dinner at the restaurant where we were on our wedding. For some reason we never made it back there. Now she goes w/o me. And she is very excited about it. I'm not. I doubt she is actually having any memories about it. These little things hurt so much.
