I was going back through some old emails I was exchanging with a friend and I came upon something I wrote there…
Advice I gave myself and believed to be true when I wrote it and then over the past few weeks proceeded to ignore it and now I am dealing with my personal pain because of it.
No more!
Quoting myself
“I spent 12+ years in a relationship trying to CONVINCE someone to be with me… I won’t spend one minute more … one second more doing that… either they want to be with me or they don’t”
This is the place I was at when I found the strength to let my “EX” walk away…
This is the place I was at and I felt whole again…
This is the place I am again…
I am a GREAT guy… I have SO much to give to a special person in my life that deserves it and will give back to me…
Maybe someday my “EX” might MIGHT! deserve this again…
I feel like such an idiot for falling into a trap of my own devising… One I escaped before and felt freedom and I was doing Ok…
So I will move on with my life… If I find someone fine… if I don’t… fine…
If there comes a time my “EX” comes back and we are both free…
I will consider it… no more no less...
I will take each day as it comes and let the past be the past.
