I still am... however she will NOT spend to time with me of any consequence...
Because she KNOWS she still loves me and that what I am doing is courting her and it will confuses her and will bring her back to me and wreck the "magical new funness" she has found... with “OM”
I am going to be much more difficult to get along with... not horrible but I will do things how I want.
Metaphorically I will rebuild my boundary’s with some nice thick walls with sharp spikes on them.
I am going to go back to short and dark way of dealing with her... If she wants me in her life she can dam well earn me if not she go to the hot place... two months of behavior like that is what brought her around in the first place…
She doesn’t like it one bit when I am indifferent towards her… will have to see how that changes things…
I have found my anger again... and I feel safe behind it again… This time I know what to look for to defend myself
I deserve far better then what she has done to me... I will not be her convenient friend...
An interesting thought I had tonight…
Come the fall our kids go back to school… BOTH of them… she will have EVEN less free time if she keeps her current schedule and lives here like she plans…
I wonder how “OM” will take an every other weekend romance…
On to GAL
Caught up on 5 hrs sleep this afternoon... feel much more stable...
After that I took a Long hard mountain Bike Ride through a local obstacle park... was quite fun and real good exercise... have been wanting to try it for a while...
Went for Super with Sis and BIL then out to play some billiards nice time... tired and distracted however...
Going to meet them and my parents for breakfast then play a round of golf so much of my Day will pass with the company of loved ones doing something...
Will keep me occupied…
Sunday Night will be tough being alone... knowing "EX" will be back in town... then
Monday night will be Kung Fu Class
Tuesday I get my Son back and have to see "EX" – if she doesn’t like this then I will let her know want me to be different then you be different and I will see how it goes.
I’m not going to be belligerent… I’m just not going to be a doormat
