Hi Rok
You don't know me. I went thru something similar to what you are going. Reading all your posts, I find the moment she makes a move towards you; you drop everything in your life and run back. Probably scaring her back to her shell. Has it ever occurred to you that she may want to chase you, but you never give her the opportunity to do that? My advice is to change your life for you – you cannot control her choices. Go out get involved in different projects for me it was taking dancing lessons and showing my wife I could live a life without her. Project an air of confidence. This will take time. So be patient and confident, be a true friend at the same time move and do things for you and your kids. Be happy around her – even fake it if it comes to that. Even if you loose battles to the OM, remember you want to win the war. And that is going to take time and will test you patience. Women do find confience attractive